Is it time to jump off the Carousel? I asked myself this question a long, long time ago. I was 50 pounds overweight. I was stressed, depressed and exhausted and I was a believer. What did my carousel look like? My husband and I were two ships passing in the night. I was a people pleaser trying to do for everyone but I refused to look in the mirror and care for myself. I was going around, and around and around. One special day I had a wake up call and I remember thinking…I can no longer live like this. At this exact moment in time, I realized I was blaming my circumstances. I was blaming my husband, the food I was eating, people, others reactions to me, and the list goes on. In reality, I was out of control because I had lost my identity as a woman in Christ. I was believing the world, I was CONFORMING, and it was time to regain my TRUTH. The first thing that I felt led to do? Change my thought process!
I got a note card out and I put three things on the note card that would make me happy. My three things were (in order on the card):
1. Harmonious relationships
2. I want to be a great personal trainer
3. I want to be a worldwide life coach
I was a stay at home mom. These were goals that felt a million miles away. Every time my mind leaned toward negativity, or argumentative thoughts I would focus on one of those goals. It was amazing that I was actually able to retrain my mind. What happened next? I started to care for my body. I started cooking foods that were more healthy and eating out less. I did not tell my family about this decision at that time. I knew I wanted it to be a personal experience. And let me tell you… it got the families attention!
My family started noticing a difference – a true difference – a loving difference. I was now more approachable, and more loving. You will hear me say often that you cannot give away what you do not have. How can I love my husband if I wasn’t loving myself in Christ? BINGO!
No longer do I blame my circumstances (in the slightest)! I am responsible for my thoughts and feelings. I am responsible for my temple. It’s not someone else’s responsibility, it’s mine. It’s not someone else’s responsibility to make me happy or joyful. It’s mine! I can mold and create something amazing, powerful, and excellent in Christ, but no one else can do it for me.
Rather than walking around depleted, tired, and overweight my body is a full vessel. A vessel that is refreshed, exhilarated, renewed and can give to others. To fill my vessel, I offer myself love, joy, laughter and healthy foods. As I mentioned before, you cannot give away what you do not have. My marriage has been completely restored, my health has been restored, my love for life has been restored, all because I’m keeping my vessel full.
The three things that I wrote on that card continue to unfold beautifully in Christ, plus so much more!! God hears our prayer!
Are you on that carousel I mentioned earlier? Going around and around and around?
Are you ready to jump off?
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